Hopeless..

Hello blog.. been neglecting for almost 2 years now.. but no more, as of today, this "place" will be my santuary & theraphy for stress-relief of my lousy and lonely self. Yeah..I know I sound pathetic but whatever.. I don't want to lie to myself anymore.
I have been thinking about alot of things lately. Most of which is my state now.. I'd already graduated from the Uni and now 'makan anggur' for almost 7 months, spending my life just being a lazy-unproductive-bum, a burden to my parents [who are already retired by the way] & been doing the same darn things [sleep, watch TV, play video games & net surfing] over and over again ever since.
Why didn't I find work, you ask? Well, I tried but failed or better yet I'm just HOPELESS & UNfortunate. I know most people my age group are already successful in their lives but, yet here I am, still living with my parents and lazying about. Even though I am the 1st of my siblings to achieve a higher academic ,which most often equals to success in finding GOOD PAID JOB, yet, THEY are the ones that are successful in their lives.
Honestly, I don't understand why my life is like this.. Am I doomed to just become a failure and a burden to my parents for life?? Am I??